gibeau
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2011-02-10 12-54-39
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Hear are my guts in all there glory! It may not be me, that these posts where directed to then again it may be.so if it is.you T posting these things i must horny match Antelope Valley-Crestview tell you and any who cares.I loved you for 7 years.some of them where soooo good, I forgave you time and time again for major wrongs, but you broke my heart by miss treating my son.all he ever wanted was your attention, acceptance and love.how can you profess your love to me, when he is a huge part of me, and you couldn't love him? I tried for years to get you to see how much this was hurting us and you never cared you made empty promises and lied to me. In my book that is not LOVE. love is an action! not a word you say only because you want some to say it back, and your actions and words never lined up.I am still single it is not easy to meet women that are OK with the whole kid thing. so you can tell your self what you need to, to justify your lack of action, that is exactly what you have all ways done, why change now? I never wanted to let go, I wanted our love to be forever but you put me in the position that by loving you i was hurting my . you made me choose. You have promised so many many many (ok i'll stop well more) many times that you would learn about parenting, i am tired of believing you and then being let down, not on something so important.(And for the record you can be a lez and still want a family ARE NOT BAGGAGE!) i have heard so many Gals say that on here.So to all the lucky gals out there that have some be good to them! be honest to them, LOVE them! its an action not a word.I am so damned alone, I hate this part! I cant express this pain it sits like led on my heart, I want to be with some that will love me and my son.but my damn tender heart is just.well a little raw. I believe in true love but i have been mistaken enough times that i all so think that i will not see her as such in tell we are at the end of our lives and still holding hands! well shit i am going to cry pleas excuse my lack of eloquence.Guts i guess they can get messy. T. I am sorryfucking hellbut my son deserves love tooand i .ipleas don't make me say good bye again.and if these posts where not meant for me.than from the perspective of the that left to the gal that was left, some times we say things to protect our hearts I said many times that i didn't love her but it was only to protect my self.if there is any love left all it will take is right action on your part.and be bold fear will destroy the best of relationships,have ever noticed that if you avoid what you fear than it happens.face it let it go do what your heart tells you is right. and if you take no action than accept that perhaps as much as it hurts you where done too. Love and Gratitude
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