anyone out there you know when you have that feeling inside that is so hard to control. i have that feeling and my family tells me i am going to hell. please tell me i am going to be ok even though i have these thoughts

You're going to be OK but damn, is there any way you can get away from your family?

always been around them we are a close family but i can't get rid of the hunger for the woman's touch

Hang in there and remember it's never too late. Perhaps you need some space from your family, while as they can be wonderful, but a bit smothering. Sometimes, no matter how hard, you need to live life for yourself and pursue what you really want. I know it's hard, but trust me, it is so worth it! You are in my thoughts, I wish you the best. Hang in there.

What does that even mean? How can your family forbid you from being lesbian? You either are or you aren't. Its not as though they have any input, y'know? The thing is, therapy, or some sort of professional intervention is being suggested so that you can learn how to stand up to your family and live whatever life it is that you want.

Hey, I speak from experience. I know it's not easy, but find you a great support system of friends and figure out what you need to do to move on with your life and live for yourself and your happiness. Also, I totally agree with IWT, a good counselor is worth more than their weight in gold!! You can do this, believe in yourself, you might just be surprised how it gets easier. I know it could be scary right now. Find a good support system, that was key for me.

Thanks for your kind words, I don't know that I'm sweet, but trust me when I say I've been there. I won't lie to you, it's not easy but do believe when I say it's worth it. Family is very important, but know that living for yourself is just as, if not more, important. I wish you the best 28wf. Believe in you!

Agree, and also remember that family is not limited to the one you were born with. We all create our own family, based on love, as we go through life. IU was luckier with my given family, but have also been lucky enough to forge a larger extended family of friends throughout my life. I think our culture is too fixed on the families that raised us - there is so much more family to be found out there! Good luck, really. You will find community and love elsewhere, and maybe your birth family will come around. Stranger things have happened.

You are so right my friends are my real family.

I second that!

LON is right You're going to be okay. I promise (and I'm having a crappy night, too).

without reading the other responses first I will tell you--YOU ARE FINE! It's hard when everyone around you is all hating your guts for something that you can't control. And when that happens, everything that everyone else does somehow lands on you. But remember this: It isn't you, it's them. Stay true to you. It's hard sometimes, but you can do this.

for your personal safety, for your life I would urge you to get away from people who tell you you are going to hell- they can do things in the name of god which are ungodly- and for your happiness I would urge you to follow your heart